I Like My Coffee White and My Boys Black

by Julian Moon

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Dillpickle52 The emotion and flow of this album is very real. Keep up the great work Julian! Favorite track: Boys (Part 7).
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released June 10, 2014

Written, recorded, performed, & mixed in a single day by Julian Moon.

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Track Name: Still
You're so cool and smart and thin
I don't know just where to begin
So I don't
and it hurts to keep it inside

You suck at living, you suck at romance
I suck at talking, just give me a chance
I'm not the guy that everyone
Thinks I am outside

Can you even sit still?
You've got to let it go
Can you even sit still?
You've got to let it go
You've got to die inside
Before you grow

You're so chemical everything's white
I'm organic, not that it's right
And it's not
But our precedents are just so unalike

What is nature? Am I seeing this wrong?
It's just your pleasure, you can sing your own song
I prefer a song I can understand
And I'm not too bright

But...

Can you even sit still?
You've got to let it go
Can you even sit still?
You've got to let it go
You've got to die inside
Before you grow
Track Name: Hair
I'm gonna grow my hair out
Until it's a pillow
Until it's a shield
I'm gonna grow my hair out
And let it be curly
And let it be real

I say that I forget
But I get angry
And I get afraid
I shave it all off
Go back to Day 1
And throw it all away

And I can't help myself
I'm trying to be more in control
I can't help myself
It's time to let it grow to my goal

And I can't help myself
I'm trying to be a person who cares
I can't help myself
It's time for my to regrow my hair

I have a bit of a phobia
Body hair scares me
I shave nose-to-toes
But I think I can beat it
I've been getting better
I think I can grow

And I can't help myself
I'm trying to be more in control
I can't help myself
It's time to let it grow to my goal

And I can't help myself
I'm trying to be a person who cares
I can't help myself
It's time for my to regrow my hair

I don't drink coffee, but when I do it's black
I drink the half and half separately
I don't think I've ever really been on a date
That just occured to me

I cant help myself
I wrote this song so I wouldn't forget
I can help myself
I can't give up yet
Track Name: Boys (Part 1)
I love it when you fuck me in the back of your Versa
Let's go to the Goodwill, I'll get some plus-sized skirts
I need to match my backpack with my very first purse
And I don't wanna go fucking home

It feels so good that all my stuff can fit in my car
and if it wasn't recalled, then I'd be where you are
It's so cathartic, so lonely, so bizarre
To throw out all the excess stuff I own

C'mon baby fuck me in the movie theater parking lot
Leave the skirt on 'cause I really frankly find it hot
I heard you live next door to arcade pinball
We can play all night, we can play all night

Is that an aquarium?
Good shit, we can raise some baby snakes
Or maybe grow tomatoes
Or pasta-accessories that we can take

C'mon baby fuck me in the movie theater parking lot
Leave the skirt on 'cause I really frankly find it hot
I heard you found a playground with psychadellic mushrooms
We can play all night, we can play all night
Track Name: Boys (Part 2)
Oh, shit, my boyfriend's on the phone
Just pretend your dick's not in my mouth
He's so far away right now
I wish he could come here and help me out

I'm a fuck, I'm a fucking cunt
Getting fucked is just part of my life
I can't be exclusive at all
There is nobody just my type

I feel I owe it to you to be faithful
Even though I warned you that I couldn't be
You said "that's ok," find the pleasure you need
But I'm so conflicted being so free

We're not even official
This might not even work
So doing a line off a dick or two's fine
It's just to tide me over 'til we're sure
Track Name: Boys (Part 3)
I wish I had a picture of myself
with fresh blue nails and a big red sweater
Black wig, lit cig, and the tallest fucking socks
So I could put it on my bandcamp and feel a little better

all my friends would know i'm fake
but the strangers who searched and found my page
would look at that pictured girl and think
"what a masculine voice and lovely face"

go away stubble, go away armhair too
(oops sorry, fuck, that's the next album's recurring melody)
Track Name: Boys (Part 4)
Aren't boys dumb?
Isn't it cute?
when they wear tall socks
With flip flop shoes?

Aren't boys dumb?
they're scared of being gay
they catcall girls
To try and find a mate

I was walking two blocks down the street to class
and saw two men over forty admiring an ass:
the girl in front of me.
this was two blocks, literally

I dream of a world where girls fuck guys
Where pegging's not a fetish but a way of life
If I wasn't such a fucking sub, I'd peg all day
I'd have a drawer full of strap-ons to lubricate

But I'm just a fucking hypocrite
I don't wanna do the pegging, I admit
No one's preferences are a fucking choice
So if it doesn't hurt you, why speak your voice??

Aren't boys dumb?
We need more girls pegging
More boys in collars
More boys begging

I dream of a world where girls fuck guys
Where pegging's not a fetish but a way of life
If I wasn't such a fucking sub, I'd peg all day
I'd have a drawer full of strap-ons to lubricate

If you're not into it, then that's fine
I really just hope you keep an open mind
If I change one boy, oh just one
Then my pegging message goal is done
Track Name: Boys (Part 5)
I love it when he fucks me in the back of his pick up truck
It really gets me going, makes me finally give a fuck
I know I'm moving soon, and we'll be together then
I'm just so happy now I can't fucking handle it

He tells me I'm his pet, tells me that I'm his favorite girl
I wanna hug him, wanna kiss him tell him that he's my world
I'd be lying, but it's still what I want to say
And he can pick me up and carry me right away

Maybe he will fuck me in a movie theater parking lot
Leave the skirt on 'cause I really frankly find it hot
We're gonna live above all night pizza
We can go all night, we can go all night

Maybe he will fuck me in a movie theater parking lot
Leave the skirt on 'cause I really frankly find it hot
We'll have roof access for our secret garden
We can play all night we can play all night
Track Name: Boys (Part 6)
But his dick is deformed and his face is deformed
But I love him so much
Am I really so fucking shallow that this bothers me?
No, it's just a passing thought

If he moves in he can pay for the apartment
And I can finally sever my ties
That's such horrible thought
I'm such a fucking cunt
But being a cunt is part of being alive

This isn't all for him, hey it's mostly for me
But if I'm better for me, then I'm better for him
But I'm gonna be honest with myself, I'll try to be better
But first I gotta change, I gotta be slim

Once I hit 140 I'm gonna transition
Whether the world is ready or not.
And I sure as fuck won't be
Track Name: Boys (Part 7)
So let's hear it
For self improvment
For going running
For just movement

For growing hair out
For quitting drinking
For buying rabbits
For new thinking

For severing ties
For no more cheating
For quitting soda
For much less eating

For starting college
Or even quitting
For Jameson's roadtrip
For solid shitting

To all the rushed albums
That catch a moment
Before it fades away forever

To all the planned-out six month albums
That catch a year
become your best works or better

For inspriation
For sometimes crying
For making new friends
For not dying

For death of ego
For understanding
For lack of judgement
For motivating

For mellowing out
For your G.E.D.
For your crossdressing
For burned CDs

For deleting all your child porn
For being glad that you were born
For feeding your friends like a baby bird
For realizing that life's just absurd

Just sleep on the floor sometimes
Try it, I swear, it's great
Crippling loneliness is something worth knowing
When your friendships feel so rare
And escape, when you escape (you MUST escape it)
You can remember what it was like

Aren't boys stupid? They're not, I'm joking
I'm a hypocrite, don't peg if you dont want to
I don't know what I'm doing, I'm just fucking melting
I'm like liquid, I'm water I just don't know
The only thing I'm sure for me is
I don't wanna go fucking home
Track Name: Girls
We are domestic dragons
We have a well-laid plan
And you will drool until we say

Then some are even stronger
We think and we speak man
And we will rule you everyday